By Murphy C.
The first Sunday of every month I fluff my grandma’s couch pillows, grab the quilt from the hallway closet, and snuggle into the sofa that could literally swallow you whole all to watch Breakfast at Tiffany’s. My grandma and I sit together, usually holding hands, and stare at Audrey Hepburn on the twenty-three-year-old television screen. The visual of my grandma and me isn’t nearly as glamorous as the image of Holly Golightly smoking her cigarette in an LBD dress and kitten heels. But, that’s kind of the point.
The same poster that hangs on many of my friends’ bedroom walls is also the picture of my grandma and me relaxing on the most comfortable couch in the world. Only the infamously flawed and lovable Holly Golightly could bring these two different worlds into the same realm.
When I was younger, Holly was just a fun character that connected me to my grandma. She was witty, and I gasped at her effortless beauty. Even as an eight year old, I knew she was a big deal. People wanted to be like her. They talked about her. Still. The film wasn’t in black and white. But the pace was slow, so I figured the film was old.
It wasn’t exactly socially acceptable to be obsessed with old movies and hang out with your grandmother, so I kept my admiration of Holly Golightly secret. I internalized her prose and specific lines of dialogue. Ideas, like “the mean reds” or being a “wild thing”, seeped into the cracks of my mind and became apart of my natural process of thinking. In fact, it still kind of is.
But only now can I even begin to fully fathom the cult figure she really is. She’s the prototype for the modern woman. And in my generation she’s the perfect balance between the old ideas of sophistication and the new pride of independence—or rather the idea of being “indie”. Although Audrey Hepburn is a cinematic icon, I am almost positive that her starring role in Breakfast at Tiffany’s sealed the promise of that everlasting fame. When I think Audrey Hepburn, I think of that poster. The orange tabby cat on her shoulders. The mindful glance. The jewels. The high hair bun. The New York City skyline in the background.
Source: Chad Film Blog
If there was a recipe for success in life, it was this movie. The aim was Holly Golightly. And when I decided to investigate further by reading Truman Capote’s book, the basis for the movie, I was excited. Within the pages of Capote’s eloquent writing, I discovered that the original version of Holly Golightly was nothing like Audrey Hepburn’s romanticized Holly Golightly on my grandma’s television screen. I loved the book, but the discrepancies between the film and the literature became so massive that Holly Golightly became two different people.
There was the Holly Golightly gently singing “Moon River” and strumming on an acoustic guitar on the fire escape of her chic building. Then, there was the Holly Golightly the literary call girl. One was the girl I manifested all of the beauty and savior faire that I one day wanted to exhibit. The other was the complicated mystery that I never wanted to be although subconsciously knew I was.
After talking about the movie with other teenage girls, listening to Deep Blue Something’s song, “Breakfast at Tiffany’s”, and even researching other opinions on the Internet, I realize that other people find that dilemma, too. So within this entire dreamy illusion of Holly Golightly, the character herself becomes like the rest of us torn between reality and appearances. These two different personas of a character weren’t a dichotomy but a skewed perspective, a relationship between ambiguity and interpretation. I didn’t have a favorite because I didn’t need one. This was simply another example of everything else in society, in life, heck, even in the world. The opposing perspectives didn’t change my love for the fifty-year-old pop culture icon. They only displayed yet another indelible connection that I had not drawn myself.
And as I head home this weekend, I know that I’ll be watching Breakfast at Tiffany’s with my grandma on her sofa. We’ll admire Holly Golightly as the modern woman, as an example of wit and style, and as the epitome of the battle between appearance and reality. She may have been processed through the Hollywood machine, and the whole character may have been converted into an idealistic archetype of strength in vulnerability. She may even be a big, fat lie, the cult figure, the brainwashing idea of feminism, or even the baffling persona Capote designed. But as I’m squishing into my spot on the world’s most comfortable couch and pulling the quilt across my lap, I’ll probably still be thinking, “Man has she got style…”
Having never seen Breakfast at Tiffany's, I was a little lost. From the way you described her, I was able to create a general idea of the two Holly's, but it was quite apparent that the characters are too big for summary. It sounded like you'd have to see the woman in action to really understand, and this fact, that you were able to convey the magic of an idealized archetype, the way that there are some things you can't describe, was probably one of the biggest credits to your essay. Which is really saying something because it's damn good writing.
ReplyDeleteIt's got a fantastic narrative, starting on the oversized couch, feeling the betrayal of Truman's Holly not being the one from the movie, coming to terms with that, and then returning to the couch all while keeping the information coming at a perfect pace.
And your writing voice is particularly charming, with a large vocabulary and classical influences, but every so often Texas shines through, with interjections like 'heck' and 'Man..'
One thing that could have been improved, though, is opening up the discussion. You mentioned other people struggling with her two depictions, and that she was a cult figure, but only really explained your interactions with her. You did a really good job at that, and it might just be that the fact that the prompt involved Pop Culture which made me assume that you were supposed to talk about how the public interacted with her character more, but that'd be my suggested improvement.
I really like how you related this movie to you personally. Breakfast at Tiffany's is such a conspicuous pop culture icon, that if you hadn't written it from a personal point of view, I think it could have been somewhat cliché. So I applaud you for that. You have a really good style of writing.
ReplyDeleteI've never read the book so I think it's interesting why Holly is such a different person in the movie and in the book. Actually I never even thought about reading the book but suddenly I'm interested.
Alex
I agree a bit with Ben- I have never seen this movie either (sadly) or read the book, but I was a bit confused when you described the two depictions of Holly Golightly.
ReplyDeleteAside from this, I really enjoyed your blog Murphy. I think it is was a blog should be- engaging, yet with a bit of flair, and I could see your personality come through. It was very well written, and I could see you and your Grandma sitting on her couch with your detailed descriptions. You make me want to watch Breakfast at Tiffany's and experience it. If you had your own blog, I would definitely follow it.
Chloé
Murphy-
ReplyDeleteAnd here is what I wonder….is the key to the dilemma you are struggling with contained in the line from the film “she’s a fake, but a real fake.”…or maybe it is more salinger-like “she’s a phony, but she’s a real phony”?
I mean I think the issue is not whether it is a lie but whether it is authentic…like Picasso said “art is the lie that tells the truth.” Is holly an authentic artistic creation ? she has created herself….yes? now, do you buy her?
Or perhaps it is like Emily Dickenson said, “tell all th eturth, but tell it slant, success in circuit lies.”…Is holly truthful …but slanted?
And I can’t help resist mentioning sex and the city…perhaps it is because those people don’t seem to me to be authentic….they strike me as actually being just a version of the guys I played sports with for four years in college…and who I could not wait to get out of the locker room so I didn’t have to listen to them and their game-playing extra-curriculuars that were done in the name of “being real”…I didn’t find them real, I find holly golightly far more real than any of them…or carrie, or Miranda, or whomever…
-David
Hey Murph,
ReplyDeleteSo my original comment was deleted, but I will try. :) I liked your blog.
I'm curious to know which Holly Golightly you mostly identify with. Which Holly does your Grandma truly identify with? Or does she even know about the call girl Holly?
In addition, I like your vision of sitting with your grandma bonding over the romanticized version of Breakfast at Tiffany's. I've never seen the movie, but after reading this, I want to.
~LiY@h~